DARN
i was bathing when i cough and vomitted phlegm
then i saw somethin orangy red
first ting to my mind was BLOOD!!!
gosh then i remembered oh ya i drank carrot juice just b4 bathing
duh

common tests is over
i feel so relaxed but well
soon ill have to worry again
cos i think i will fail then gotta take retest
well if i pass i damn lucky
cos i only studied at the veri last min
huh? u asked me how much is last min?
well i studied only 1 hr before my paper starts
errrr last min enough?!!! hahaha

business was quite quiet at the cafe
reali enjoy cookin and making coffee there

got to know some of the stuff and decisions my frens made
some one who is farkin close and one of my longest time fren just decided on somethin
whether the injury is permanent i dont know
but i realised for now
i reali didnt know and have no clues as to what is on her mind
just then i realised nothin can be expected, everythings unfathomable



when teling doesnt make a difference
when living with it is a torture
is it time to give up some one who will never change
are you able to take the changes then?


wendy*6

when u cant even hear me
when i totally feel u no longer love me
when u can only hear others
when i feel u fell for her
when i realise u care for her more than me
when u didnt notice i was missing
when its time
its too late
when i give up , when she gives up
nothing matters anymore
so listen to wad we say

haha i actualli spent my whole birthdae week getting sick ha

initially wanted a veri quiet birthdae
but i forgot to siam the bball gang on wed
i actualli went to werk can
so i kena sabo lor
after werk
the whole gang threw water bomb at me
so poor thing can
then we blow candle and the candle is the ones that the fire will never die ones lor
and i kept blowing lar
then they told me to make a wish

then i see y yuan like keep hiding behind ah fen de back
but aiya i proceeded to close my eyes and wish
skarly i felt somethin
ha cos i wasnt wearin glasses i tot someone wanted to strangle me
and i almost punch e person
then i realised it was yuan puttin a necklace around my neck ha
and i was struggling when i haven realised it ha
it was so sweet
the necklace is a simple one with a letter Y
i was like erm yuan u bought wrong already
it should be W not Y
i said it in front of every one
then i realised how dumb i said that
anyway it was a simple necklace but yuan told me
e meaning was actualli he wanted to tie me to him forever so he bought a Y instead haha
corny hahaha








then i took e first chocolate and smeared on yuan and told him
i loved him e most so he will be e first to get saboed by me ha
then when i kena sabo i hugged yuan damn tight
then they bo pian have to pour e water on yuan too
haha so romantic to get wet together hahaha

on thur itself there wasnt much..
yuan took me for a nice lunch and dinner was home haha

then i received a call frm lyn
and i was so touched
she and zibin actualli went to my hse
but i wasnt home
so they came to yuans hse to find me then bring cake and a reali nice dreamcatcher
so damn touched man
but i reali cant cry la u noe me haha
but reali
i will never regret u great buddies in sch haha
and the cake was reali great
yuan ate e left over la.....
nvm he fat i happy hahahaha

fri i became sick again so i didnt meet my cousin
funni y everytime yuan is not around i get worse
but when he around i get better
weird heh

aniwae tml is e first test but im still sick and getting worse
haiz
maeb cos yuan is not around again? ha


to those who smsed me thks a lot too

-sharon ( thks for remembering)
-quack ( the kiasu hu wish ten mins b4)
-pearlyn ( yes u r e first aft12)
- veronica
-noora ( damn unexpected)
-dad
-daniel and yan
-da wei ( so glad even he rem ha)
jing xuan
-wei and zhen
-priscilla
-camila
-jessica
-zibin
-woon chao
-arvind
-melissa choo choo
-shuxian ( thks for e prank but u were fooled in e end hahaha)
-chun hui ( thks for rem)
-yvonne
-ben koko and family
-melvin ( ha told u u would pass tp with my blessings ha)
-nicole
-adeline

and thks for calling too jon and fiona

taken at sentosa hahaha


me and yuan


danny and yvonne













forgot to mention
that dae when i was sick
i felt hungry so i wanted to eat instant noodles
then i asked yuan whether he wanted to eat
first he said he didnt want
then he said share
i was like wan eat eat one pack la
share where got enuf to eat
then he sae aiya dun wan le la
i said ok lor
then i asked him to take my noodles for me and guess wad
he was eating my noodles
when i stared at him
he said cheekily hehe veri nice lehz
can make one for me also?
so horrible rite
when i wana make together dun wan to sae haha

and when i wake him up to go sentosae
guess wad he did
he looked at he and said humph
then went back to slp
using my blanket and bolster
so naughty
hahaha


this is my most simple but best birthdae ever
i wish to celebrate it with yuan always ha
not to forget all those great buddies
and my loved ones like my family

wendy*6
i love my life
i love yuan
i love my family
i love my frens
i relai reali reali love yuan

of all things that can happen
im down with flu again!!!
yeah just one month after my last bout of flu
i seriously suspect if it could be,
cos of workin for both sat and sun
i just bathed to feel better
but my phlegm seemed to be forming
without a stop button
and like nobodys business
have been slpin since sundae nite till mon till this mornin
and i still feel sick
for a moment just now i felt like my whole room was turnin

and best part is my practical test was on mondae and i had to postpone it to wed
and my birthdae is in 2 daes time
and next week is my common test week
and now im so farkin sick
great..

luckily
althou physically im wasted
my mental state is still hangin on

sundae yuan tucked me into bed
then yesterdae he dropped by a while
long enough for me to hold his hands and grab a few hugs
before giving me a peck on my cheeks and settling off home

just yesterdae i also got to know that his brothers gal fren broke off with him
he cried yeah
was surprised his brother would cry given his egoistic self
( doubt yuan would )
she had another man
he wants to find an answer
but wads e use of knowing whose e third party
when her heart has already wandered off?
certain stuff has got no answer
never had and never will

i liked jiahong for 5 yrs almost 6
but till now i never did know if he had reali liked me 2 yrs back
recently he added me in frenster
call it my sixth sense
but i felt it was him
and it reali was
was quite surprised he accepted it
but aniwae i wonder if he saw me and yuans pic
wad did he feel
not that it reali mattered to me animore
but like yang ,
i just wanted an answer

having been thru all these
i reali understood the feelin of gettin hurt so deep
the feelin cannot be described
but all i can tell you is u wana cry
but u cant
is it deep enough?

me and yuan have both been thru that
will the experience enable us to understand each other more
or is it gonna be a boulder stopping us frm giving each other our all?

wad could be learnt is that
when u have accepted someone new
its not fair to still think of the past
planning a new life and tryin to forget the ex
could be the best answer u ever want...

wendy*6
sometimes im afraid
afraid that when i give u everything
wad u give is not
afraid that u will give up
afraid that u will leave me
before im prepared to let u go

haha yesterdae we had this psychology tutorial
then dr thomas was saying that
40% of people feel guity bout having too much sex
hahaha

me and lyn were like
gosh are you even sure there is a non virgin here... in my lecture hall now?
well we cant reali imagine those beside us having sex ha
then lyn was saying she will onli have sex when she feels her body is beautiful
to me i think having sex is not just purely THE SEX
its more of a spiritual connection
where even though u are not perfect
the person who loves you for who u are
ACTUALLI makes u feel perfect
where even when u are fat and ugly
you are still comfortable to be naked in front of each other
and u can even play with each other naked and joke around
sometimes its not a matter of " oh im used to seeing him naked" kind of thing
but rather " its just a shell covering a gemstone" kinda thing
meanin
the mental attraction
the character
the happiness
the understanding
the same frequency
of being with this person
that makes you love this person so much
so much that u want him inside you
to have the part of him in you
or your part in hers
to share this further connectivity
this special moment
and thats wad i mean love

and i truly agree with pearlyn
and myself
when i have sex
its gonna be e time when i know that somebody appreciates me like nobody does
and that i feel beautiful and comfortable with him
importantly
its because i love him so much i want him to be part of me
to share THE moment together

wendy*6
no love, no sex
:) its not just bout the horniness yeah

i overslept this mornin and missed my lesson
im startin werk soon and i have so many projects
im so darn busy
but maeb i kinda liked it
althou my more far fetched dream would be to spend every single dae with yuan haha

have been pondering
its reali true when they sae that when u earn more u spend more and you expect more
i guess this is a headstart for me to reali save up
its to make up for all the money that i did not save in the past 17 yrs i guess
but im quite afraid of this sudden luck
its believed that when you gain something not out of hard work
you will stand to lose something in gain of that

call me superstitious
but im not taking any risk
especially when im so happi with my life rite now
so i guess i will just keep it just in case i need to return it one dae

must werk werk werk and save save save
cos i duno
maeb ... i sae maeb its for M*******
hahaha
but its expensive la

anyway
wadever la i still want to go holidaying around the world ahhaha

wendy*6
another step for a better day ahead

i was a bit saddened on sundae
was disappointed when he agreed with my fren that my taste was weird
i thought he could be more like pearlyn them all
but well
its a small matter
but duno why i just felt a sudden gush at that moment

sat

roberts party was ok
e food was not bad
certain funny stuff happened

yuan wore his shoes and left
then becos we were eating at the space outside
si didnt wear my slippers
when he left i just follwed him without my slippers
and i didnt realise it till i reached the gate
GOSH
so paiseh la
his frens were outside eating too and they saw it
sianz
too engrossed in following him
then after that i waited for him to see yang etc then go his hse

the nite is young with you around


then yesterdae
i was low again
i just felt sometimes he forgot i existed
i dun even feel that you need me
he just walked on without me
because whenever she is here he is different
i guess i just know someday ill leave him
im affected by a lot of stuff
im insecure
its joyce then its her................
...........................
.....................


wendy*6

woAh yuan cars taken todae haha
just a brief thingy for todae
cos yuan was so good to rush back to gimme my bra and even send me to sch
im gonna reward him
but how?
hahaha not for u all to know except him wahahaha

aniwae i was veri happi when we ate just now
i walked away when he was ordering food
a line of ppl btw us
then jx asked wad drinks i wanted
then while i pondered she asked yuan
and to think we ordered the same drink china apple ha
normalli i drink sugar cane and he drink tea
hahaha
wad a coincidence
and his face when he realisd we both said e same thing was like
huh? u ordered china apps too?
haha just a small thing but duno why i so happi
it will be etched onto my mind

kkz gotta prepare for a long dae tml :)

wendy*6
because its you,
every tiny weeny thing matters
and because its me
wadever u do means the world
my world :* with eUUuu



btw this is yuans cool pose hahaha
the greatest kung fu fighter hahaha [ to me:) ]





return of wong fei hong........
GrrRRRRR.......


















ain't i cool? don't i look reali hip?

ps: lingo taken frm yuan himself
i not so bhb to sae my lao uncle cool haha





psssst.... look at his growing tummy hahahaha.... my creation haha....

yuan serious in cutting magiks nails haha
















sianz im supposed to go to sch now
but im bra less now haiz
you see
i went to yuans hse to stay last nite
then my clean clothes all in e fhm shoe bag
then this mornin
groggy me
haven take out my bra
then i call him to take the shoe bag and put in his car
then i was angry with him this mornin
when i wana change then i found out i haven take out my bra
haiz
wad a dumbass
thats how i got bra less and cant leave his hse
sianz

wendy*6