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wendy*6
why?

wendy, when you reveal your true colors in love, you're a Sensual Partner

You're looking for a loyal love who can share your dreams and fantasies — both in and out of the bedroom. In fact, your greatest desire may be to share your intimate life with another person who can truly appreciate your sensual world. Because sex and sensuality are such valued parts of your life, these things are likely non-negotiables when it comes to finding a life partner. You're also looking for the kind of person who will value success and appreciate the finer things in life.

hmmmm yeah sex and sensuality is somewhat quite important
but not that kind of horny kind
but rather of a holy love level
i feel its like a bondin where two persons share this love and actualli show it
THATS WHY ITS CALLED MAKING LOVE HAHAHA

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i watched happy birthday on monday le
im so happy ha
but the ending was sad la
still im happy cuz the show sort of tells you that true love reali exists
and you will never get bored of the one u love
and sometimes its reali not the looks thats counts
and although someone better comes next
you still love her for her smile and innocence

sometimes they may not tell u they love u but actually they do
it may be pointless not to say
but at least it stays longer

wad was rene waiting for?
this is wad she said
" maeb im just waiting for the time when he will be more serious and not flirt so much,
when i feel more confident about myself,
and when i feel more security from him, thats when ill be together with him"


ill blog bout what the story is reali about after ping watch hahaha

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oh
i reali gotta say
ive got a damn clumsy boy frem
he spilled " chap " on himself hahaha
he veri cute de la

and that day when we were playin boxing ha
i tell you
getting piggy back rides and tosses frm him is better than goin to the theme park
hahaha

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wow ive reali been workin and doin my own stuff
ever since he told me he needs concentration on his job
ive been tayin at my own hse
workin and studyin haha
then i met up with frens
and i realised wow
ever since ive been together with yuan
i didnt realise i can actualli be so busy if i wanted to haha
almost everyday got plans ha
well it mite be good afterall

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wendy*6
every night i wish
wish that u will be happy
smooth in your job
wish all around me would be happy
including me :)

i reali reali want to watch happy birthdae asap hahaha
i haven watched it yet
but i think its bout this two person who on off on off with e relationship

well before i watch the movie
i wana evaluate wad the movie is about


hmmm it about this girl who reali likes the guy
but the guy like somehow like her
but dun wana commit to her
every year she wish this guy would tell her happy birthdae which he did
then when they got problems they will find each other
share bout their lives in between
then this went on and off for bout ten years

ok this seems to be a fake story
but seriously i believe this can be real
because.......

yeah two persons can have unsettled business for years without knowing
and every yr somethin gets u two together
be it meetin on the streets coincidentally

maeb rene told louis khoo not to contact her
but she gave her new no whenever she changed plan
see the irony?

was watching 2002 just now
it has been like almost five years
i still rem me and jess watchin it together
both of us had different problems at that time
but both knew wad i was thinkin during the last part
it was the song
yep
the song.....
but i realised memories do fade but not feelins
break up cos of diminished feelins? nah i dun believe in that
but in fact there was none to begin with

ok for those who is reading
i know my content is like all jumbled up
and in bits and pieces
but its a reflection of me... :)

and yiping... no ... im not wanting to watch happy birthday cos it resembles mine....

wendy*6
it was a promise made,
a promise still held,
a promise that will always be.....

hahaha
yesterdae first day of open hse
me lyn and cam went to bluff as freshies and get free goodie bag
e operation X wasnt so smooth lor
first after we took e free goodie bag we became lazy to walk
so we took e shuttle bus
and lyn saw her fren
almost kena exposed big time
nvm
then when we reach lsct area we didnt expect hsn ppl to be there too la
but kelvin and e rest help us bluff and act like they duno us
skarly our lecturer ms lock saw me comin down
she call me name so loud la
i wasnt thoroughly exposed lor
but luckily i kept my goodie bag inside le ha
and she blur blur dunno cam and lyn is in e course
she tot i bring them, my frens to look at hs course hahaha
ms chen ying also thought so and even call me to show them level5 hahaha
luckily we accomplished project X without any injuries wahahaha

oh ya and the guide in e shuttle bus hor
he yr 3 in marine and off shore thing
he not yandao but cute nerd nerd type
his english not bad lor
wa i almost wanted to go in marine and off shore de lo
if go in maeb i noe him liao hahahah
he also in life guard
then he veri dark and shen cai veri good
u see e veins at his arms hor
me and lyn like WAAAA hahaha
nerd nerd cute cute... my type hahaha....
well lao uncle oso nerd nerd cute cute when he wear specs
and do cRuMsY thing hahaha
anyway wad i derived at is
lyn and me r just like me and jess together
bian tai de se mei mei
wahahahaha

went mos yesterday
e man see an keep comparing my ez link photo la
i noe dun look like but he see till so kua zhang le la
5 of us ordered 2 pints of vodka cranberry and 2 pints of beer
me and jess shared bout 1 pint of e beer and half pint vodka
but i drank more la
we went shopping before goin mos hahaha
cos we were previously wearing somethin too un revealing
so we go get somethin more revealing ha
stupid rite
but it was nice la
although me and jess felt that we would rather be with our respective half
so i left quite early ,took a cab and went to see him :)
but it was an eye opener and it wont be e last time....
me and jess wana go those sleazy bar where ppl reali touch gals ha
we were saying its more fun touchin ppl
then more like clubbin ma hahaha
and she wans to see porn when we go bangkok
cool i also wan
when we went australia 3 yrs back
every nite after 10 watch tv
u know why
cos its porn hahaha
sick in e mind la me and her hahaha

wendy*6
just wana enjoy life

hmmmm
just saw lyns blog then i realised
yay its not only me who needs lots of assurance
there are actually ppl having same insecurities as me

sometimes i wonder
if the saying
men are frm mars and women are frm venus is true
then i realised it is so darn true
some examples

when ur gf doesnt call u
it means she is thinking of you
but she is actually waiting for you to call her
on e other hand if ur bf doesnt call
it just means that he is busy
and doesnt have time to think bout ya

when a guy says he is ok
it means he reali is ok
when a woman says she is ok
she is not ok

when two couples spend lesser time together
and the woman is not so sticky to her bf anymore
to the guy its normal
its just a time for breathing space
to a woman
she is actually feeling distant frm the relationship already
she is trying to live without the guys existence

guys work to show he loves her
but gals are companion freaks

guys, pls feel blessed when a woman keeps wanting to see you
\hug you
\stay with you
callin you
because it means that she loves you
but beware when she gains independant
when she stops wanting to see you
stops the every day phoning of askin where are you
because thats also e time when she starts to stop loving you too

a woman is so easily contented
give her a rose once
but she will rem it forever
but even the tiniest thing that you thought would never hurt her
could hurt her so deep that she will never forget
so guys,
you wont die while trying to be more sensitive towards her

dont look at other gals while you are out with the one you love
cos u will never know
if this oogling would make the one who loves you leave
just like the pretty babe who just walked past you

never leave the one you love, alone while she is cryin
because at this point of time
her tears are for you
solely you
and you are all that she has
and she reali needs you
she doesnt want u to go
thats why she cries

finally
never cease to look at her like she the only one u want
assure her always
and make her feel veri special
because before u even start to do that
she has already done it for you
right from the moment when she loved you

do u all understand why gals always call to ask where their bf are
and wads their plan for the day?
not that she is irritating
or nosy
but because
when she does not know what u are doin
does not know more than wad others know of him
and when she doesnt know whats happening to him
the next thing she doesnt know
is if her feelings for him are still existing

thats why we would reali love it if u would tell us everything
:)

wendy*6
cant deny its there

just saw this in the friendster bulletine
and i feel it reali is veri meaningful
do read it

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tears.

Message:
If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take itanymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest ofyour life;
If you let her go,
she couldn't go back to being herselfanymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person sheloves most,
she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would staywith you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you ruined her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain and hurtshe's feeling?
Think.

Which other girl have criedwith pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And because of you?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she wantssympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longerpossible,
the pain,
hurt,
and agony
havebecome too big a burden to be keptinside.

Guys, Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on what you havedone,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,Cause one day,It may be too late for regrets,It may be too late to say "im sorry".

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yuan with his bdae cake
and he tot e bakery gave those nice candles with his age la
omg i bought it de ok
and i bought it almost 4 mths back ha
kiasu hor
see he veri cute hor haha
















hmmm
enough of that...
i realised i have reali been skipping sch reali a lot recently
seriously i reali hate goin to sch
it reali sucks
feel the timetable is reali a freakin waste of time
few hours of studyin then two hours break
feel like its wasting time and money
slack nothin to do then eat haiz
although there are ppl with worse timings but
wad bout those who can go home at one and 2 for most of e days
let me have one dae of goin home at 1 i also happy
but 3 days of 4 and 2 sixes?
darn sucks
i rather spend e time workin and earnin money rather than having few hours of break in xchange for puny hours of learning



wendy*6
i dun give a damn

i just passed by some secondary kids
hmmm they reali brought back a lot of memories
how i wish i can go back to my secondary sch days
and off course primary sch days

when we never worried bout money
when i just played soccer woth the guys straight after sch
when results just didnt matter
then i rem e guy who touched my butt but i didnt feel it la
but he told me sorry for touchin my butt hahaha
i tot it was damn funni
then that stupid guy who kissed me during recess ha
i still rem his name is ivan

secondary sch was also damn fun with jess around
we also played with a lot of frens
during first 2 yrs
we had these two veri good guy frens
always hang out together
we even stole things together but just for fun la
they etched a veri deep memory in us right? ha
i also didnt have to reali think bout my future
wad job i want to do
and best of all
everyone was so innocent
especially the first love haha

now all my frens all know i dun wana get married
dun wana have kids
but when i was in sec sch
i liked somebody so much i wanted to get married, to him
even wanted his child
haha stupid la
but it was reali pure
but yeah i reali changed because of him
and now i still would not want a family ha


but now we gotta think of wad career we want
and slowly we are stepping into society
having many many problems to deal with ha


wendy*6
just now i passed it again
wondering will it ever be mine?
will i ever have one? or none?

wow i just realised i havent blogged for freakin long haha

hmmm how i spent my new year
it was veri simple
we had dinner at my sis hse
my family together with yuan
then we just slacked at home when jess and vind came to join us
vind poor thing la goin to ns liao hahaha
we went for the 140 am movie la
and lyn and e rest went for e 230 show at ps also haha
but we didnt know we at e same place la haha

then new yr afternoon was reali special...
reali reali veri special to me
haha
why?
hmmm haha im keepin it in me and only me haha

sianz start sch again haiz
i sort of liked e holidays ha
i mean who wouldnt yeah
been damn slack since sch restarted
maeb i just dun reali have e drive
its not that i reali dun wana be focused and serious bout sch
but it seems that i do not reali have any kind of satisfaction
or support from anyone in sch ha

i think i have a veri serious memory problem
and last time maeb i was too used to having my frens remind me
what homework is to be done
but now i guess ppl reali dun give u chance le
they just let u die yourself haha
this is reality i guess


haha i just realised i didnt post this blog....
anyway this was like supposed to be post new yr one la....


anyway todae i went bugis with sharon
was quite shocked at wad i heard
well he wanted to patch with her after almost having broken up for 2 yrs
she was quite worried he may still like her
but i told sharon
maeb he just realised that e time spent together between them
was better than e time he chased after her instead
sometimes being easy to get is not good
but sometimes the ones who are easily gotten could be better than wad u think

its not always the good looking ones that are always good
sometimes its a matter of character , right time and right feelin and place

who u want may always be the best
but it may not make you the happiest
but whoever makes u happy
is the one who deserves your love always

i hope she makes e right decision
if she likes him
i hope she wun wait till he sianz already then tell him
cos playing hard to get aint good
it may come back to u
imagine u are e one waiting
its not a nice feelin to wait and not know

for me im happy with my life
and im so darn glad i didnt miss e chance of being together
with e one who makes me happy most

wendy*6
still thinkin of you even when i sleep