some people do not have the chance to
they try hard to be with the one they love
some people have all the chances
but sadly they do not use it

just watched a teen drama flick
its so romantic
the guy obviously likes e girl already
but he does not want to admit it
remembering once in sec 2
i also had that kind of happiness
how i hope things would not be so mundane like now
maeb its just that we got used to it

wendy*6
sad sad sad, just keeping it inside of me

i woke up in a pool of tears
not knowing how it came about
but maybe... just maybe.....
some drops i did know why.....




















heart
body

im sorry
but why?
i just feel unattractive to you anymore thats all
but i like you
and i know, but one day you'll want one who is more attractive
what makes you think so?
just feel so
.....
i guess passion once lost, is lost, it cant even be faked
but its not all bout passion right?
yeah love without passion is = just a damn shell of a daily routine
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sorry heart, i think i gotta have time to think through.
maeb for a time, for a while, i lost it
i need to find my old self back


wendy*6
and maybe i need to reali find someone who has passion forever...

wa just now smsed yuan
yuan said he on e way to his wife's hse
haha
cool now his wife le
to think like two hrs ago she still his gf haha
but still it would be better to think properly before getting married
i mean, its a lifelong thing

should not be made less than a yr together
should not be made if u 2 hav never stayed under 1 roof before for at least a yr

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just now we were talking

june: eh wendy, i ask you ah...
if your husband become mentally unstable
like them ah , owuld you still care for him?

me: off course la....

then if he hit you lehz?

hmmm must see how serious lor
but if he hit me cos he unstable i can take it de
if i'm married to him le i will stay all e way de
i'm like that will stick all e way de lo
furthermore i tough ma haha

aishah: ya lor, me too but i must see e degree of hits ba

huh, if me i think i cannot take it, i mean my husband mentally ill
haha, paiseh ah i always ask these weird weird questions de

me and shah: haha its ok la

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wendy*6
marriage is still waiting to be found in my dictionary

it was so real
i was so scared
after yuan left this mornin
i dreamt jiahong came back

'''i just quarrelled with yuan
then i drove duno whose car out althou i had no license
jh wanted to meet me
but he didnt care bout my safety
he told me to drive
i drove
then in the middle at a fire station
i became scared and stopped driving
then i met grace, jh's older sis
we walked together
then we met jh and crossed e road
jh didnt even look back althou he told me he liked me
then i think yuan called and was veri worried bout me
he even asked whether i drove e car an where was i?'''

then i woke up

wad a dream?!
so haunting
so scary till i woke up
wonder wad it means.....

wendy*6
how i wish i can be in the comforting embrace of yuan everyday
and not have nightmares of jh anymore

wow been quite long since i updated my blog

ok chinese new yr
was fun haha
yuan came to see my grandma
my family liked him off course
he my first boyfren wad hahaha
i knew he put effort into leaving a good impression la haha
reali appreciated it

ok then we went to malaysia, kluang haha
saw his grandma, aunties , uncles and cousins
they are all veri nice people
although its a reali short stay
i reali anjoyed sitting in the train and sleeping haha
because i was lying on his chest
and the uncomfortable train seat somehow just became damn comfortable hehe
and looking at him sleep on the train
with me lying
i guess somehow i decided upon somethin
when i came back i told yiping, jingxuan, sharon and off course jess haha
only they knew haha

anyway off to work....... imh haiz far sial otherwise i like it there ha...
blog longer next free time haha...

wendy*6