these few days got a lot to blog
but dunno how to get started
so i think nevermind
just forget bout wad happened....

been quite angry with some people
felt like my mood now is reali veri bad, including temper-wise
i wana show it to them
i know i can
but is it worth it?
to possibly give up ur lifes happiness just to show that THEY were wrong
i dunno
if i reali do it, ill just get material satisfaction
but what do i reali want??
not much more time to actually ponder
then soon ill have to decide my path
soon.....

anyway im sure im not the only one in this dilemma

wendy*6
if only things were as simple as others

haha just cant help lookin at yuans friendster
althou its just a small exerpt
but it makes me happy all the while

i think my temper has been getting worse
short tempered
and wilful
i guess you have to have patience haha
and i reali appreciate all that you do

damn tired ever since sch reopened

first the fight at mcc
reali disappointed in my close fren fren
but well forget it
at least now i know how she is like

then my new time table reali sucks
almost everyday frm 9 till 6
and worse when i finish early
my sis expects me to go her office and work haiz

this mornin i realised my stuffed toys on the floor
is infested with bugs yuck
had to clean everythin
throw all my fav toys
mop e floor etc etc
luckily my clothes and bed nv kena sial
DAMN!!!!

then the responsibilities of e dogs
chivas actualli brought e sweet titbits to my sis bed and bite
so the whole floor and bed all sugar
extra work to change e bedsheets haiz

tireed tired tired
mentally and physically.....
and all these had to happen all at the same time
im goin bonkers

wendy*6
just gimme a listening ear

amazing...
i actualli worked frm 9 till 10 in the night todae
i reali duno why i wanna work so hard for
workin ot for so long
i mean i usually damn lazy and heck care
but i guess its right
just earn somethin rather than lazing around haha
excited bout wads comin this weekend yeah..

anyway i hope he reali understands the situation like the way he is over the phone
hope he reali shows me a kind of sense of security i guess
hopefully...

wendy*6
and hopefully, the ring goes off too (",)

feel so drained by my illness and my family responsibilities
why cant i find someone who can share my burden with?
a friend or boyfren or any1 who can walk the dogs with me
have dinner with me or even just watch tv peacefully with me
alone at home eating now.. pathetic..
now that my parents are in australia already

i dont understand why
everytime i wait and wait but just to get disappointed in the end
its not his fault i agree...
but then its whose ? me?
i feel so tired
feel like e old me has come back to haunt me
the old me.
lethargic, aimless, undriven, lifeless, idle, lonely etc etc me!

am i supposed to keep it in me or say?
not the latter i guess
it wouldnt help in saying cos
the fact will be the fact
just like how e ring stays on his finger
nvm just let it drain me
just thinkin when will i finally give every f**king thing up
and resume back to the carefree life

wendy*6
everything sucks

haiz
today work first day must carry tons and tons of cartons of paper
reali damn tired
then fall sick
e whole day only eat a pack of chic rice
then reach home drink fish soup and rice
skarly bathing that time vomitted all out
feel quite terrible
miss yuans hug so much right now
but haiz he now enjoying his partyworld with hao and mel
dun wana bother him
feel so hungry
now eating maggi
pathetic
hopefully dun vomit again
damn weak le

sobz sobz

wendy*6
stupid sickness.....

erratics

wong chau yang!!!
that bro of derence ah go and anyhow post halo on my blog haha
scolded him and nagged veri long
anyway he has been a great movie buddy
for these few daes

shock!!
dan and evon getting married?
a bit shockin but then again damn sweet to know
and actually feel how its like to have friends around getting married
veri happy
cant imagine how it would be like to actually go to a frens wedding dinner haha

happiness!!!
was so damn happy that dae at parkway
he held my hand and i was thinking where should we have dinner
and suddenly
he just walked me into fish and co
simple dinner but its so special
because knowing which is my most favourite
he just gave me all

contradiction
it would have been better if only the dinner at fish and co,
had the word " PAST " erased

bored
suddenly just feel a bit bored being in that bunch
not their fault but i guess its mine
somehow im gettin bored
having most activities with the same group of frens

confusion!!
i know its not fair
but i sort of still dunno what do i want
is what jess said right?
is it somethin worth worrying to begin with?

independance
mum and dad goin to australia again...
hope they reali have fun
hmmm had reali wanted to go with them and see my new nephew heehee

turnOFF !! pissed!!
sort of quite angry with the way my boss is doin his job
make everyone so difficult to get on with their work
if u are so confident of doin things
then why still ask me for help?! duh...
even your coffee machine only like us haha
only come out with e coffe for us haha

laziness...
have not updated my diary for so long
do have a lot of nagging to write there..
its reali a replica of what my brain is thinkin and my heart, feeling.


wendy*6
and how i wish, you understood too....