wa today so sway
met e guy again
and he followed me till e road there
then i faster faster run across
and run up my stairs lor
so scared sial
so disgusting

then this guy
dunno who
add me in msn
then keep askin me to go out crazy sial
and he beg me for then pic i use in my profile
seow

dunno y ppl nowadays
cockeye and so thick skinned haha
right veron haha

wendy*6

fAdiNg AwaY

just now i took bus back
had to change one stop before my hse la
then was wondering
whether to wait or just might as well walk home
i walked like 2 m away le then e bus came
then i sort of thought
if i had waited patiently like 5 more mins
there were quite a lot of ppl
and if i ran back it would be stupid
so i continued my walk instead

then i walked thru the path i walked for my whole sec sch life
thots runnin thru
present and past
still thinkin bout if i had waited ,
would it be a different story?
but thru the end
i understood that this person i lost
was someone i wouldnt have lost if i had waited for him a while more
for him to be prepared to come to my destination
to give me what i wanted
what he was afraid to try
but then again
thru this lost
i realised
it didnt make me feel regret or sadness
but rather learning how much hurt it would bring me
if i were to lose everything i had now
thus i can only go forward
and i will only go forward

brought all the dogs down
3
cleared max's shit and mess
i reali love max a lot
i wish he reali was and could be my dog
but i know even if he was with me
i cant give him the freedom
i finish so late everyday
and he is in the room for the whole day
i guess his own present home would be better
furthermore all these cleaning up is reali draining my energy
have to go do research work , school ends so late,project works
then i still have to continue chores at home and im workin too
sometimes i reali feel im superwoman
but the difference btw me and the one in the movies is
that superwoman forever alert and not tired
but im a superwoman who is just on e verge of collapsing haha
imagine i get so busy at this age
i wouldnt wana be bogged down with marriage and hse werk for e rest of my life sial
haha
life would be so meaningless then ...

wendy*6
then again i was wondering if all this is fated :)

wa just now reali scare me lor
one guy follow me till my hse downstairs and say wana be frens
scary

anyway
yesterday i reali said something which i shouldn't have said
and i am so sorry to say that to you
you know i didnt mean it
you know you're the only one i want
and the only one i wana have too
just you
so i hope
you would not becos of wad i said
do anything rash
cos if i reali wanted to do that to hurt you
i would not have said it
im reali veri sorry
but do you know u hurt me too?

wendy*6
all i want is you to want me the way i want you too

let your bf or gf do the test also
then u will see if u 2 are compatible anot
you will realise in the future that
seriously if both your answers are different
then there is no way that u 2 will last
because both will have different ideals in life
this was wad dr thomas said

suddenly feel that i have been missing out a lot on stuffs with my frens
wad do i want?
when cam told me
she feels like suddenly she has got nothing,
nothing to look forward to in life
and that at least i have got yuan
but, is that all you want? is that all I want?
suddenly feel that i may not have anything afterall
not the ideal job, not the right mind haha
and frankly i'm starting to lose hope that i'll get married afterall
he has been telling me less
i've been even more insecure
maybe i've said too much
so im keeping more to myself
sometimes i dun wana think
but when i think nah nvm
haha

so busy in sch
research
haiz
prcp
haiz

btw a week ago
i smsed jiahong the last sms
i dun wana contact him anymore
i totally let go of the memories
and quack u are right
i guess i did forget afterall

i spent 2 days with magik
frm magik
i sort of saw thru yuan
sort of concluded some things

wendy*6