it was so difficult to wake up last sat to go for my ane att
my mood has been fluctuating during this few weeks of att
same for my emotions

both are the same its like always the problem of
staying? not staying?
try or not try?
can i do it?
can i reali go out and try the real nursing world?
white clothed angels
how true when even angels have a dark side no one knows


have i not found somethin to believe in or have i actualli believed in nothin?
have i passed e stage?
why don't i feel secure, is it because i have no faith or do not believe in faith?
will relationships last after all haiz
will being too lax on each other actualli make us stray?


its so nice to see dan n evon have their own hse
and wl and xy too
its good to see them get married so young
but im trying to figure out
how are they actualli prepared to get married without being as insecure as me
aren't they afraid like me? hmmm
maybe thats why they are married and im not hahaha

hope cam likes e cake
didnt do much ha
but to think i actualli dropped her cake lols.....

wendy*6
the post is as mixed up as my heart...

i went to another frens wedding haha.......
sweet poolside buffet...
and the happiest thing was when i carried someone elses baby,
the baby didnt even cry when he looked at me, this stranger lols
starting to like babies la i guess haha....
and i loved my dress and how i looked
i felt it was simple but classy haha
buay yao bai

sat and sun i was treated to delicious ice cream by dear yuan
sat the muddy mudpie was great,
e chocs were flowing with oreo crumbs
yum yum
but sundays one was even more wonderful
so special and out of the world
delicious!!! yum yum... more of ice creams sooon yeah yeah....

thanks for the treat sweetie
though it came with the condition of having to iron ur shirt and pants lols

and then i woke up with a terrible dream todae
i dreamt that jx was back to snatch yuan...
i know its stupid but it reali felt so real
darn it..
so long i nv had dreams and i had to have a nightmare for a start...

wendy*6
the womans heart is like finding a treasure in a jungle
its tough to go through the jungle of difficulties
but once you find the treasure in her
she will follow you for life
and for some .. that treasure is only destined to have one owner to love..
and one of them is me...

What Does Your Birth Month Reveal About You? November

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keepsecrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.


i love the colour green, im not too sure why,
though i know it still reminds me of jiahong but its definitely not cos of him

gary is like reali poles apart from jiahong
but he reminds me alot of jiahong haha
he is nice,
called me today since he knew im sick with a ultra swollen throat
asked me to see a doc but i told him nah
and he actualli could understand my underlying reason for not seeing doctor
yeah partly cos i feel e antibiotics doesn't help
but mostly becos i got no cash u see
and he immediately asked wad time i finish tml and that he will pay for me
such a good fren ha
but i guess his love life is just jinxed since i dun see anything bad bout him
well, all e best to him and grace
although i still feel grace doesnt suit him also
but well not for me to say anything haha

i think im such a weakling
i cant believe i feel like giving him up to yiting
dunno why i feel this way
i think he may feel more relieved being with her also
almost perfect
great bod, great looks, smart, rich, confident, independant
furthermore it was wad he always wanted
anyway i dun understand why im so insecure
cant be every gal is a threat
maybe i should learn frm jessica, discover the real me....lol...
clubbing once i get well, faster faster, hoot.....

wendy*6
ho hum

im still sick since the monday

sore throat

then bit of feverish

and now plus bit flu lke symptoms

i feel so freakin tired of getting sick every once in a mth

its like worse feelin than havin menses once in a mth can

i feel so frustrated and disappointed with my own immune system

why is this happening to me?

why why why

why am i so weak

totally sucks

wendy*6

dont worry dear im not blaming you for smoking, i just feel frustrated

i love you so much im afraid ill lose you

i hate comin home
and now i know why
cos every time im back for a while
im faced with a nagging machine who constantly complains about everything and everyone's fault except her own faults
i know i can always run away
but i'll never be able to hide nor escape
until
i move out
yeah thats my goal
to move out or if i can, wait for them to move out
and just suddenly
i reali hope yuan is alright
cos im not
i do not know if the slpin thing is already affecting me in some ways
but i know somehow when im not around
he will be smsing her
whichever
few more times and im out,
poof !!!! white card,,,,
i dun blame him for maybe still thinkin bout her
im just angry at the way im pushing myself to believe that he still likes her
im trying to make myself believe in something that i do not want to happen at all
and actualli all this is because i need him so much
and im so afraid i may lose him soon

im losing myself... lol

wendy*6
HAPPY WHEN I WANT IT

And in a split second the glass shattered behind us
for a while, it felt like so did my heart
when the wiper was on
the glass bits flew onto our direction
some flew onto my face and i felt scratches
didnt know if it scratched his
but neither do i blame him for not knowing nor askin whether i was scratched

im pained
pained at lookin how im hurting him
im the one with the problems

wendy*6