Didi is out le...
I'm so happy...

but at the same time im so stressed
over his health his growth and more so because of gettingup often and not getting enough sleep myself
the whole month i have been eating almost the same food
and with the wound down under,what i could do was so limited but still i got up and did stuff myself
it wasnt that i didnt have help but my mum didnt reali know how i wanted to look aftermy child
then my mum in law has to work
then yuans sis is weak and cant reali helpmuch plus she doesnd really do much work around one
thus because of this i kept walkin n my woundis healin slow

And yuan is busy with his work
but still he needs to bondwith his child right?
its not that i blame him whatsoever
i dont wan to nag at him either
but he keeps things to himself then suddenly accumulate stuff then tell me then wad am i todo?
Even though im nagging , do u all think that its not stressed being the only one who is worried?
if both of us were to be shoddy then we'll be living a slumpy life and everything will not be done with a sense of urgency anymore

you think you're the only one who doesnt feel like comin home?
i hope i can do that too,
i hope i can just go out and party and not carebout anything
but didi how?

nevermind
i dun wish to restrict him
if he wants to go drinkin i will not stop him
but neither will i be an irresponsiblemother
but when i cant take it anymore i guess i will bring didi to australia with my parents
ill look after him myself rather then keep worrying for him n didi
worryin for one is better then 2

he doesnt even understand how much i lovehim
and now im only a naggy wife to him...
so even his frens feels im naggy...
but has he ever thought
when he goesout i am the one stayin hometo look after didi
yeah he says when mywoundis ok he will look after didi when i go out
we'll just see lor
but now rather then goin out myself and spend money
i would rather spend timewith didi n save money
money is so difficult toearn and we have achild to look after and i just started work

maybe i was too hopeful , all along thinkin yuan wouldbe relaxed with family
but all he can think is to relax with his friends

who can i turn to ?? haiz
until now my wound hasnt completely healed
and tuesdae im goin back to kallang
i love that place
but that monster is so difficult to deal with
makeseveryones day bad just a look from her
isthis akind of hate? i do not know

how comewhat you want will never be what you get?

so my advise to jessica
enjoy while you're still young
being young and committin so much isnt very fun at all
i wished i were not tied down
then i would be rotting at home slowly findin my preferred job,
out clubbing allnight, and holidaying with my buddies travellin around the world and maybe even meetin more glenns, but i didnt choose to..

I HAVE MISSED OUT

but i've not regretted having didi
he is so cute and he is my son
as long as i am alive i will look after him properly

When looking after a child , you cannot be sloppy or lazy...

I'll never be like those young mums who dont care bout their kids

nowadays when he is back
its like he is only workin or talkin bout work
feels like we dun talk and understand each other like before
sometimes i feel gina and others knows more then me
but she is not married no kids off course she cant go out and party
i would hve been if it were not for yuan
everything i do i do for him
but he doesnt feel so

thats why tiffany de misunderstanding aroused
its because i didnt know bout it beforehand and thingssnowballed when i knew it only later

i am so vexed
he doesnt understand me
i'll stop naggin
i'm already too tired to talk to him
i just hope my faith will not depreciate

WENDY*6
even the most beautiful flower withers in winter
and no matter how much i wear
i'll still freeze if i'm standing alone
Being alone doesnt mean i'm lonely
and being alone doesnt mean i'm alone
but i think im both
and loneliness could be the slowest lifetime torture