Its been long since I had this kinda sudden purge of feeling to actually get down into updating my blog.

My Grandma passed away. Just.

I was never very close to her.
But she is a very strong lady, has and always will be in my mind.

In her wallet she kept pictures of us.

My cousins my brother my own kiddo pics and one of it was my real parent wedding pics.

I guess her last worry is still my dad.

I do not want to know bout what happened in the past.
Between the elders.
It happened before i could understand stuffs, so please, dad please do not torment me and brother anymore with all these.

Please help yourself before asking people for help.

To Grandma: I will look after him, If i have the means, If he helps himself first, Because eventually i do not want my child to live the life me and aun did, without any parent to feed us.
Without a responsible father strong enough to overcome all these and take care of us.

We do not blame you, neither do we encourage you to slack around.
Basically we almost do not feel anything.
bacause if we had been emotional enough to feel all that we should have felt, we can never have come this far.
We would have given up on life, on studies and lead a straying life, but we did not.

I only hope that brother will know how to listen and forget , in order to move on.

And grandma , you have looked after this son of yours far long enough.
Please lead a peaceful life in the other world.
We'll pray for you, to enjoy your bountiful garden free of worries.

WENDY*6

Genuinity need not be shown nor understood by people, as long as you yourself feel it, nothing is more genuine then yourself.