race the dead

Although yuan couldnt join me :(

But it was huge encouragement from him :)

Managed to survive

Esp the last mob of 2 female zombies whom I shoved away

1 big sized male zombie

Whom I managed to push and go through

And a super agressive female zombie who managed to tear my tag but not my lifeline haha

I felt great surviving woohoo

and yuan thought I was gonna lose and turn away

Not expecting I came back with.a t shirt

Even won a mini contest but stupid singtel sent prize sms 2 hrs later -_-"

A great saturday plus a day of dating with hubbs ;>

A surprise date on.sat afternoon keke

Oh I love impromptuness lol

And a movie date at night watching carrie

The movie was quite good

Its important never to push someone too hard

Till they do what they dont want to do

Finally oh my

I gained 3 kg omg

Going on no carbs and skipping dinner again

Wendy*6

Loving everything that happened for a reason

rebirth

I lost myself in the midst of finding myself
how ironic

now that I am out of it
I realised how much I had
and I wondered why did I drown myself in what I didn't?
Everyday feels lighter
steps become bouncier
I became happier
I have so much to live for
to smile for

Someone who loves me deeply
my 2 precious kids
my doting parents n in laws
my job
my friends

yup
this is me before
and will always be
the happy me :)

Wendy*6
It took a hard fall to wake up from self mourning
thank you for being there for me
and never leaving

helpless

I feel helpless with our sex life
is it I am not good enough?
Is it I am not attractive enough?
Will we still have sex and intimacy after all these?
It has become so platonic
wheres the passion

I am so disheartened

I need so much so much affection
and I dont know if I can still find it in you

wendy*6
Hugs kisses and love
sos

last chance

Just when I thought its over as I deleted my account
the hard truth came out to light
that u were no way holier
what a pathetic story of the pot calling the kettle black.

once again
I am thrown into the dark hole
where I think
maybe
Just maybe
I should not love too deep anymore

at least I had an account
but you hurt me once and again with various accounts
various women

I didnt even ask them out but u did and u exchanged number
now whenever ur phone rings
my heart will be etched with a cut
each time asking myself
is that another message from that busty women
or that hanky panky women
Or maybe another one if ur exes

how sad
when I touched you in the cinema you shoved me away
and yet you wish to do this with another random women

Our physical attraction and intimacy is over
things will never be the same again
I no longer wish to do the first move
because it will just remind me of how u do the first move touching other women
perhaps thats why you always turn me away
because u want other women
its over
I will not touch u anymore
we should just move on
on our separate needs

one more time to hurt each other with the same thing
we should call it quits

I hope that day doesnt come so soon
so soon.

wendy*6
When the day comes
 that my heart is slowly cut off bit by bit
till theres not any left
dont look for me
I would have gone too far
too far for you to reach.

well past time

I wished time would stay at where we had our bestest happiest memories
that those happy memories could surmount our agony
I wished our love was stronger then our pride
that we would both swallow and take a listening ear
I wished we tried harder to understand and mend
then show harshness and relent coldness to each other

sometimes the best way is to step back to see the larger picture
but sometimes
when its long enough
no matter how warm the heart was felt
soon enough it falters to the surrounding coldness

perhaps in time due
thats the end of the so called fate
the destiny ends here
to each our lifes alone as it had once started with

And there
the love once so adored
lost to the pride and mistrust
that it can never remember what magic before

wendy*6
Time to think, time to live, time to decide a week it started.