wish it were easier

I saw her best friends daughter in school today at work Suddenly the nightmarish memories just rushed back That betrayal from my closest friend The hurt from the one i loved I couldnt stop the memories My pride my heart at my most vulnerable Stabbed My heart ached instantly Couldnt concentrate at work thereafter I still ponder over how someone could say they loved you and yet hurt you from the back That kind of hurt who would really understand I wish it was easier to move on But the deeper you loved the harder to forgive and forget Yes it will take a long time Maybe it will never go away I shut myself up I am no longer the naive but jovial person i used to be I have changed I cant change back I grew up The person who closed my door I may never be able to open up for him anymore Wendy*6 The person who was supposed to love and embrace me did not help me to get over my low self esteem and yet hurt me by embracing another women. How long do i need i ask myself?

can things be simpler? can love be simpler?

I wish love was simpler to understand 3 years into marriage and it dawned on me that i could have never understood the man i lived afterall Hit with a bang The next 4 years i tried to understand all over again Then realising that We both didnt understand each other for the past People has moved on and yet We have been stuck Halted by a wrong move Is love enough? I love this man so much and yet i couldnt understand him Would it be enough just to love him? Love definitely doesnt give the power to hurt each other right? Would it be simpler if we made an effort to be simpler and easier to understand? Can a marriage last with strong love alone? I wished we could sleep together again I miss the times we couldnt bear to stay apart I miss the times i trusted you completely before i had my trust broken I missed the old me Where i never doubted you I wish i didnt know all the things you did to hurt me Can i even hope to go back to the way before? Where we only saw each other in our eyes and no one else. What if our best is not enough? I am so afraid of history repeating I cant take any more blows I wish for a simple smooth journey ahead Wendy*6 Hope,faith,love Miss the cuddles Miss your smell Miss your kiss and sweet suŕrender Am i whom you want to be with forever? How will i ever know?

every love is different every woman is unique and every relationship has its own story

I am a hard core romantic I am passionate I abhore imperfections in my fairytales I want a soul mate who understands me I want a committed honest partner who only has eyes for me Someone who doesnt say sweet nothings except to me Someone who loves me as much as i love him Someone brave to show to the world that he loves me Someone who will never hurt me Someone who will protect me I wish the person i love to force himself on me even when i retaliate Someone who presses his lips warming me all over even when i tell him to stop Where sex is not an act of sex But 2 bodies in love making love Intimate passionate arousing Body to body Kissing hugs touch Life may not be smooth sailing Love may not be a fairytale It may seem ridiculous in real and they may say its impossible except on tv But this was my wish from the day i learnt about love I believe some day Some how Someone I believe in the impossible Wendy*6 Que sera sera